From: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com (Buffyfic-digest) To: buffyfic-digest@lists.xmission.com Subject: Buffyfic-digest V2 #40 Reply-To: buffyfic@xmission.com Sender: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com Errors-To: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com Precedence: bulk Buffyfic-digest Tuesday, February 24 1998 Volume 02 : Number 040 In this issue: BUFFYFIC: BUFFYFIC "Sidekick" 1/? BUFFYFIC: Re:BUFFYFIC "Sidekick" 1/? DISCUSS BUFFYFIC: "The Rose" (1/1) by Sarah Re: BUFFYFIC: Sweethearts 1/1 BUFFYFIC: "Ghost of a Chance" (10/?) by Ingrid BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Ghost of a Chance (9-10/?) BUFFYFIC: "Ghost of a Chance" (9/?) by Ingrid BUFFYFIC: Passion spoilers!!! Read this! Re: BUFFYFIC: Passion spoilers!!! Read this! Re: BUFFYFIC: Passion spoilers!!! Read this! BUFFYFIC: Discussion for stories only BUFFYFIC: Need Collaborator or Other Assistance BUFFYFIC: Need Collaborator or Other Assistance Re: BUFFYFIC: Sweethearts 1/1 BUFFYFIC: ADMIN: List rules BUFFYFIC: Inner Demons (6/?) BUFFYFIC: Request proofreaders, See the end of the digest for information on subscribing to the buffyfic or buffyfic-digest mailing lists and on how to retrieve back issues. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Sat, 21 Feb 1998 17:20:30 -0500 From: "Jonathan" Subject: BUFFYFIC: BUFFYFIC "Sidekick" 1/? Title: Sidekick 1/? Rating: PG-13 for gore, violence and the occasional cursey.=20 Author: Lothos Email: jonrd463@bellsouth.net Spoilers: None Disclaimer: The characters in this story are the result of the creative genius of Joss Whedon, and thus belong to him, Mutant Enemy, WB, and anyo= ne else with legal ownership. The story is mine. Summary: What if the unthinkable happened? What if the odds were evened o= ut somewhat? This story takes place after BB&B. *** He trampled down the street, burning with this insatiable lust all too ne= w to him. Nothing else mattered as he sought the source of the essence he smelled back on Main Street. She was a lovely girl, yes; one he could hav= e seen himself asking to the Junior Prom, but none of that mattered now. Al= l that counted to him was the pulsing in his gut, screaming for the soothin= g warmth of fresh blood to coat his stomach=85=20 He licked his dry lips as he picked up her breathing about thirty feet ahead. He picked up his pace, darting in and out of shadows, until he was at last at pouncing distance. His face bore the distortion of the demon, and his eyes were lit a fiery red, as a low growl escaped from his throat. The girl turned around warily, until she could see the points of red in t= he darkness. She never had time to scream=85 In the blink of an eye, he was on her. His teeth set into the soft flesh of her neck=97her warm blood flowing over his tongue, and down his throat= . He held her in a vise like grip, allowing for no movement. One hand sealed h= er mouth, while the other supported her back as he continued to feast. At last, her heart fluttered, then stopped; her body went flaccid; and any evidence of life left in her was gone. He dropped the pale form onto the sidewalk, able to hear her skull crack as her head hit first. He looked into the sky and took a deep breath. It wasn't a necessity, of course=97merely a human habit he hadn't disposed of. He wiped his lips, a= nd chin of the small trickle of blood that had escaped while feeding, then looked down at the dead girl. "Two weeks ago, I was a god to you=85. and every bitch in this city. Two weeks ago, I vowed to get respect from all of you. Now, I am the devil, a= nd you will all serve me!" From behind him, he could hear the slow clapping of a single pair of hand= s. He turned and saw the silhouette of a man a little taller than him. "Nice melodrama," the shadow said, "A real fine example of grade A cheese= , actually" "Angel, don't f*** with me now. I'm not in the mood!"=20 "Angel's gone, boy. He died and left me in charge," Angelus smirked, "and that's no way to treat your sire. I could still kill you." "Yeah, well come on! Take your best shot!" "Xander, Xander, Xander," Angelus sighed, "All cocky now that you've killed your first? You have a lot to learn, my friend. A LOT to learn." H= e stepped out of the shadow and approached Xander. "I can't kill you yet. You're my secret weapon. Come on, Dru's been dying to see you again" The two shadows turned and disappeared into the night=85. To be continued=85. maybe=85. Tell me what you think. I wrote this in a manner of 20 minutes, and would appreciate any feedback. Good, bad, indifferent, it doesn't'' matter. Thanks! - - ------------------------------ Date: Sun, 22 Feb 1998 11:13:55 -0800 From: groovy@snowline.net (Gale Weathers (Rachel)) Subject: BUFFYFIC: Re:BUFFYFIC "Sidekick" 1/? DISCUSS >To be continued. maybe. PLEASE!!!! Xander would make a sexy vamp. - -Rachel "Did Norman Bates have a motive? Did they ever figure out why Hannibal Lector liked to eat people? DON'T THINK SO!" - -Billy Loomis 'Scream' - ---scream-----------------------------------------------scream 2--- Buffy The Vampire Slayer: **BUFFYFIC List**Xander's Room**Faithful Followers of Xander** - ------------------------------buffy-------------------------------- X-Files: WLDD**SPCDD**DDSB**GBLA**DDPOL**LODD**X-F Creative**^Friend^ Shipper MY DD WEBSITE:Obsessed with David Duchovny http://www.geocities.com/Hollywood/Lot/4440/ - ------------------------------the-truth---------------------------- If you believe, no proof is necessary. If you don't, no proof is sufficient. - - ------------------------------ Date: Sun, 22 Feb 1998 14:57:18 From: Sarah Douglas Subject: BUFFYFIC: "The Rose" (1/1) by Sarah DISCLAIMER: I don't own Buffy or any of the other wonderful characters in the Buffyverse. I am using them without the permission of the people who do own them who are not going to sue me because I am not making any money off this. Joss Whedon, WB, Mutant Enemy, Kusui and Sandollar own the characters in Buffy DISTRIBUTION: No problem, just ask first RATING: I guess PG FEEDBACK: This is my first attempt at fanfic. Please let me know what you think. If I don't get any replies, I'll assume everybody hated it and return to my corner. Send feedback to SUMMARY: This story takes place right after Surprise and Innocence. It is told from inside of Buffy's head. Lastly, I would like to thank Ingrid for previewing my fanfic and giving me feedback. Okay, now on to the story. ************* The Rose ************* I feel confused . . .and lost . . . and bewildered. The last time I felt this way was when the order of Terraca were trying to kill me. Then I'd gone to the only place I felt safe: Angel's. Angel. Now there's a word that means something totally different to me now. Let's just say that seventeen ain't all it's cracked up to be. Since I turned seventeen, I've nearly been killed several times, but that's nothing new. My boyfriend and I made love for the first time. I lost my virginity. He lost his soul. Now all he wants to do is hurt me. Since Angel switched to the other side, I've spent hours in my room listening to the song "The Rose." There are two lines that describe my feelings. One is: "Some say love, it is a razor That leaves your soul to bleed." That pretty much describes what Angel did to me. When we first met, we couldn't keep ourselves from loving each other, but we thought we had to. Everytime I saw him, my love for him cut at my soul. Now, I still love my Angel, but he wants to hurt me. Everytime I see the face of the guy I love, it cuts my soul. I know the Angel I see is not my Angel, the one I love and that loves me, but I still can't get rid of the feeling deep down inside my heart that my Angel is still in there somewhere. I will always belong to my Angel. I wish I could bring him back. It's because I son't know if my Angel can be brought back that I can't slay him. What if when I finally can slay him, and I do slay him, then I go to school the next day and Ms. Calendar says she found a way to bring him back? What if he picks a fight with me, and I stake him without thinking and then Giles tells me there's some ancient ritual that can restore his soul? There are just too many what ifs. After all: "Just remember, in the winter Far beneath the bitter snow Lies the seed, that with the sun's love In spring, becomes the rose." That's it, let me know what you think (sdouglas@camfordinfo.com) - - ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 23 Feb 1998 10:32:01 -0500 (EST) From: Somalilly@aol.com Subject: Re: BUFFYFIC: Sweethearts 1/1 wait, so, is oz the admirer? - - ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 23 Feb 1998 16:26:09 -0500 From: ingrid29@juno.com (Ingrid E Stanton) Subject: BUFFYFIC: "Ghost of a Chance" (10/?) by Ingrid My rather shoddy DISCLAIMER: Buffy Sommers, Willow Rosenberg, Rupert Giles, Jenny Calendar & co. are the property of Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, Kuzui, Sandollar, and the WB. I borrow them without permission, and I’m not making any money on this. SUMMARY: Later that night… A lot of reflection in this one.. This takes place within the normal Buffyverse thus far. If you don’t get this, that’s ‘cause you haven’t read the other parts. If you want to get this, ask me for them. I’d love to hear any comments you have, so write to me at Ingrid29@juno.com. I’ll continue to refer to the souls of each individual. If I’m talking about Willow’s soul in Angel’s body, for example, I’ll call her Willow, and I’ll refer to Willow as she (even if she is in Angel’s body). *** "Ghost of a Chance" by Ingrid Part 10 *** At 10:30, Angel crawled into Willow’s bed. He had a headache. Explaining to Mrs. Rosenberg why "Willow" was so late getting home had been a nightmare straight from the hellmouth. Now it was quiet, and dark, some blue light filtering through the blinds. Buffy lay on the floor, a sleeping bag rolled out under her. She looked peaceful and pretty in sleep, snuggling down into the folds of purple fabric. He remembered vaguely looking down at her a month ago, as she snuggled next to him. It had been different then. How was she taking all of this now? Other than the bits of practical information she’d passed on to him, they hadn’t spoken since his soul had been returned… at least not directly, anyway. Even if he had been looking through Willow’s eyes, he’d seen the look on her face after he’d renewed his promise of love. It made him uncomfortable though, with Willow feeling everything as he'd felt it, knowing all his most intimate thoughts, and so much more besides… It really shouldn’t have bothered him. Willow wasn’t a prying girl. If he could chose anyone to share his pain with, it would be her- except for Buffy, that is. Did she still feel the same way? Or had the monster controlling his body extinguished the feelings she’d uttered what seemed like a century ago? He didn’t know- was afraid to ask what hell his devilish body had put her through since the change. He would find out soon enough when he got back into his body, and frankly, he wasn’t eager to find out. She’d wanted him back badly enough to let Jenny cast a spell blindly, to let her best friend risk her life, he reminded himself. But did she really mean it? Or was it just some lingering shard of an old affection that had long since died away that kept her searching aimlessly for him? The tears, he reminded himself for the thousandth time. She’d been crying. She’d been moved. Angel sighed. Tonight would be the last night he ever spent without the demon tearing at him. He wondered how Willow was faring at Jenny Calendar’s house. Probably much better than he was. After all, it had not been Willow who’d killed so many innocent people. Buffy rolled over and then stretched out like a cat. After the moment of movement, all became still once again, freezing the scene in time. Could she ever forgive him? Would she? Angel was tired. He’d almost forgotten the fact that he now needed sleep. The pillow was soft, and impossible to resist. He dropped his head down, and was instantly asleep. *** Willow lay wide awake in the dark guest room, tracing the pattern on the ceiling with her eyes. She demon growled within her, a contented murmur. She’d had her fill for the day, and the terrible hunger that had filled her earlier was gone, replaced by an animal-like satisfaction. But she couldn’t sleep. Something within her was forcing her awake. She felt more like she’d just overdosed on coffee than anything else. Then, like a tidal wave, memories took her heart by storm, despite her efforts to ignore them. She remembered the Angel’s agony, his desperation, his love. Such strong feelings- how did he keep them contained so easily? Not easily, she realized. To live like this… For Willow, there was an end. Tomorrow evening, if everything went as planned, she’d be back to her old self, but for him- Merely a renewal of the curse. Worse than a death sentence, even, because the torment never ended. Except for that one moment in time. She could feel it as strongly as any of the torturous feelings he retained. It stood alone against all his hellish existence, one moment of pure joy. For a moment, it was all worth it simply for her, the one he gave himself to. And it still was, she confirmed, resuming with her eyes the pursuit of the ceiling tiles. *** END, PART 10. Whadaya think? Send comments to Ingrid29@juno.com. "You don't look back along time, but down through it, like water. Sometimes this comes to the surface; sometimes that; sometimes nothing." --Margaret Atwood _____________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com Or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] - - ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 23 Feb 1998 17:28:06 -0500 From: ingrid29@juno.com (Ingrid E Stanton) Subject: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Ghost of a Chance (9-10/?) (From the author): Sorry guys! Screwed it up again! The parts are out of order because I was having e-mail problems. Just reverse 9 and 10, that's all! - -Ingrid "You don't look back along time, but down through it, like water. Sometimes this comes to the surface; sometimes that; sometimes nothing." --Margaret Atwood _____________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com Or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] - - ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 23 Feb 1998 17:25:21 -0500 From: ingrid29@juno.com (Ingrid E Stanton) Subject: BUFFYFIC: "Ghost of a Chance" (9/?) by Ingrid My used (but in good condition) DISCLAIMER: Buffy Sommers, Willow Rosenberg, Rupert Giles, Jenny Calendar & co. are the property of Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, Kuzui, Sandollar, and the WB. I borrow them without permission, and I’m not making any money on this. SUMMARY: We continue later that night at Angel’s place. Goofy discussion ensues. CHARACTERS: Willow, Giles, Buffy, Angel & Jenny. BUFFYVERSE: This takes place within the normal Buffyverse thus far. If you don’t get this, that’s ‘cause you haven’t read the other parts. If you want to get this, ask me for them. FEEDBACK: I’d love to hear any comments you have, so write to me at Ingrid29@juno.com. HUH?: In this part, I’ll be referring to the souls of each individual. If I’m talking about Willow’s soul in Angel’s body, it will be Willow, and I’ll refer to Willow as she (even if she is in Angel’s body). *** "Ghost of a Chance" by Ingrid Part 9 *** Willow and Angel sat together on the bed in Angel’s apartment, the rest of the party seated on chairs close by. He handed her a packet of blood. The hacker looked at it with wide eyes, and then looked back up at Angel questioningly. He nodded, and she pulled at the plastic. It ripped, and blood spurted out. "Willow!" Buffy grimaced as she wiped the at the splat of blood on her white shirt. "This was brand new!" "Sorry," Willow answered distractedly, looking around the room. Giles and Jenny were rubbing at similar stains on their clothes. "Sorry, guys. I guess I don’t know my own strength." She looked at the image of herself and her brow wrinkled. "Now what?" "Just think about the hunger." Willow stared at the blood, and with a roar, her face changed. "Woah." She touched her forehead. Then she looked up. Three pairs of eyes were glued to her. "Do you mind?" The growl startled even her. "I’d like to eat in peace." Buffy raised her eyebrows. "Okay then. So, um…Giles, Miss Calendar! What about this spell you’re going to cast?" Better than "Nice weather we’re having," she thought sarcastically. Giles answered. "Actually, the soul switch is a much easier spell. Since I’m familiar with it, Jenny and I can perform it together." "Oh. Good. So you’re sure it’s going to work this time? No more out-of-body experiences?" Miss Calendar sighed. "Sorry," Buffy was apologizing when they heard a muffled cry. "A-gel?" Despite Willow’s request, they couldn’t help turning around. The girl in the vampire’s body was struggling with a empty blood packet where she couldn’t seem to dislodge her teeth. "A-gel! I’m stuck!" Angel stilled Willow’s hands. "Hold on." He gently pulled the packet from her teeth, and watched her lick her lips. Buffy turned back to the teachers. "Well now what?" It’s nine o’clock, and I don’t think Willow’s parents are going to hesitate to call the police if she doesn’t get home soon. "You’re right," Willow replied, sitting back against the wall. Her face smoothed out automatically. "But-" She looked at Angel. "You’ll have to go." "What about you," he asked, genuinely concerned. Buffy answered him. "Willow can stay here, right Giles?" Giles thought for a moment. "Well, I suppose so." He consulted Willow. "That is if that’s all right with you." "Oh sure. Dark, scary place. No problem." Miss Calendar cleared her throat. "Rupert, she can stay at my house." "You’ll have to block out your windows," Angel informed her. "No problem," she answered, "We can move some furniture." Giles stood up and looked at the trio. "Alright then, let’s get moving" "Oh no!" Willow hit herself in the head. "The term paper! You have to go to school and hand it in, Angel." "You want me to go to school?" "It’s in the black trapper inside my bookbag. Buffy can help you with stuff." "Right," Buffy answered. "I think a sleepover’s in order, yes?" "Good idea," Giles remarked. "Jenny?" "Alright, come on Willow." Willow nearly hit her head getting into the car. "Remember: English research paper. Black trapper." "OK." Angel followed Buffy to the car. How the *hell* was he going to get through a whole day of school? *** END, PART 9. Comments? Questions? Write to me at Ingrid29@juno.com "You don't look back along time, but down through it, like water. Sometimes this comes to the surface; sometimes that; sometimes nothing." --Margaret Atwood _____________________________________________________________________ You don't need to buy Internet access to use free Internet e-mail. Get completely free e-mail from Juno at http://www.juno.com Or call Juno at (800) 654-JUNO [654-5866] - - ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 23 Feb 1998 19:40:00 -0500 From: "mireille roman" Subject: BUFFYFIC: Passion spoilers!!! Read this! Noooooo! Don't do it! I know you want to but don't! Wait be surprised... believe me it kills the moment! DON"T READ THE PASSION SPOILERS!!!! I'm from Canada, I should know. Put salt & tabasco in your eyes(or something) just wait... it won't be too much longer!!! MiRoM READ (not about vamps,its about Ebola!) - - ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 23 Feb 1998 20:30:57 EST From: LMcint6188@aol.com Subject: Re: BUFFYFIC: Passion spoilers!!! Read this! where can I find them.. the spoilers? - - ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 23 Feb 1998 21:22:42 -0500 (EST) From: Jeff Reid Subject: Re: BUFFYFIC: Passion spoilers!!! Read this! On Mon, 23 Feb 1998, mireille roman wrote: > Noooooo! > Don't do it! > I know you want to but don't! > Wait be surprised... believe me it kills the moment! > > DON"T READ THE PASSION SPOILERS!!!! > > I'm from Canada, I should know. I just saw the episode, what a plot twist! You have to see the episode to believe it! Mireille is right, don;t read the spoilers! However, if you want me to tell you....... :) One advantage of living in Ottawa: our station shows the episodes on Mondays. - - ------------------------------ Date: Sun, 22 Feb 1998 21:23:27 -0500 From: sah Subject: BUFFYFIC: Discussion for stories only This is just a reminder that the DISCUSS topic for the buffyfic list is for discussion of stories *only*. Please take any non-story related discussions to the regular buffy list. Thanks, - --sah sah * romana@mindspring.com * romana@aol.com NatPack * Jungle Patrol * Bishop * Bossy the Lost Dwarf * BTVS Listowner Nat's B&B (moving shortly): http://members.aol.com/romana/natpage_stuff/ "She's out there, strong and smart and proud and gorgeous. That has to piss the hell off of Clarence Thomas, and that makes my day." --jk on Anita Hill - - ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 23 Feb 1998 11:01:47 EST From: "The Mistress" Subject: BUFFYFIC: Need Collaborator or Other Assistance I'm think of doing a series of stories that cross Buffy with two or three horror movies. Kind of like my "Nightmare at the Hellmouth" story, that crosses Elm Street with Buffy. Here's my ideas so far. If you think you can help, let me know. Buffy/The Exorcist Buffy/Scream Buffy/Prom Night Buffy/Frighteners Buffy/Phenomena (Not the John Travolita movie. Phenomena is a movie about a girl who has a telepathy with the insect world...among several other plots) Karras ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com - - ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 23 Feb 1998 11:01:47 EST From: "The Mistress" Subject: BUFFYFIC: Need Collaborator or Other Assistance I'm think of doing a series of stories that cross Buffy with two or three horror movies. Kind of like my "Nightmare at the Hellmouth" story, that crosses Elm Street with Buffy. Here's my ideas so far. If you think you can help, let me know. Buffy/The Exorcist Buffy/Scream Buffy/Prom Night Buffy/Frighteners Buffy/Phenomena (Not the John Travolita movie. Phenomena is a movie about a girl who has a telepathy with the insect world...among several other plots) Karras ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com - - ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 23 Feb 1998 10:32:01 -0500 (EST) From: Somalilly@aol.com Subject: Re: BUFFYFIC: Sweethearts 1/1 wait, so, is oz the admirer? - - ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 23 Feb 1998 09:39:33 -0500 From: sah (by way of sah ) Subject: BUFFYFIC: ADMIN: List rules Welcome! This list is for fiction related to "Buffy The Vampire Slayer," both the TV series and the movie. To ensure that we all get to enjoy as much fiction as possible, please adhere to the following guidelines, and please save them for future reference. 1. Fiction should have Buffy characters in it and clearly be related to Buffy. 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Title:Inner Demons Author: Black Fire Email address: Blackfire42@hotmail.com FEEDBACK: If you wish Rating: PG Spoilers: Up through Phases, I think. Disclaimers: Buffy: The Vampire Slayer and all characters therein belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy and The WB. Jäzen (pronounced Jay-sten or Jay-zen) is my own creation. Author's note: This idea came to me long when Buffy first began. Needless to say, I was very angry at Joss when the Angel episode aired. (You'll find out why soon enough) But I got over that and since then the idea has... evolved. Also. I have not finished this yet. Summary so far: Jäzen has told Buffy about how his sister was killed. Here is how he deals with it. INNER DEMONS Part 6 JÄZEN'S STORY CONTINUED After she died, I had nothing. With my sister's exile, my father had lost the will to govern the town. As a result, the title I inherited was an empty one with no real power. It didn't matter much. The minor nobility was losing power anyway. The townspeople no longer had any respect for me as their lord because I had "concealed my sister's evil nature for so long." They never wasted an opportunity to gloat over what they had done, especially in front of me. And I couldn't punish those responsible because they had become town heroes. So I left. I went into the woods and killed every animal I could find. I guess I figured that if I couldn't take my anger out on my sister's killers, I would take it out on the creatures I hunted. I lived like that for about a month, I would say before the vampire who made me attacked me. She said she chose me because she though I would be a savage killer. And she was right. When I was changed, the demon took hold of my anger and amplified it. She didn't know why, of course. She had only been watching me for two nights. She never found out either. In my rage, I killed her three nights later. But with the new found power I had, I was finally able to take revenge on the town. I slaughtered the men my sister had named, their families, their friends. And then, I turned on the rest of the town. I killed every living thing there in the course of a week. I gorded myself, bathed in their blood and finally torched the whole place. I sat and watched the blaze from the roof of my house until the flames started to consume it as well. Only then did I leave. I left Prussia, leaving a trail of bloodless corpses and body parts in my wake. I would attack anyone who crossed my path. I must admit, the watcher diaries do not do my early years justice. I became the monster that other vampires could only hope to emulate. My favorite targets were angry mobs, especially ones in persuit of assumed witches and devil worshippers. I ripped them apart one by one. Sometimes, I would stalk people for weeks, play with their minds a bit before I finally killed them, but those were rare occasions and the victims were *very* special ones. For 225 years I slaughtered people all over Europe. I revelled in death and destruction. Until I retuned to Köln. It was one of those special cases I had mentioned. I had been tracking a well known master witch judge up the Rhineland for weeks. I had him completely out of his mind. He kept raving about the ghost of a wrongfully condemned witch that was haunting him. I had finally cornered him in an ally when she jumped me. She was beautiful, with an aristocratic aire that was out of place in that part of town. In my distraction the man I had been persuing managed to escape. That only angered me even more. We fought for about an hour or so, neither of us giving ground. But she was tiring, I knew it and she knew it. I finally managed to find an opening and was able to beat her into unconciousness. I was about to kill her when I noticed a flicker of silver around her neck. I went to look closer and found a silver chain attached to a large silver locket. I was taken aback by it. A memory stirred in me of a similar locket I had given Verena on her wedding day. As I looked at it more closely, I found that it was too similar to that one to be a coincidence. And, when I turned it over, I saw it. The inscription said... I guess the closest I can translate it into English would be, "To my Verena, my little prophet. With love and hope, Jäzen." I read those words over and over again. And as I did, all the anger I had felt over hear death, left me. More than that, I remembered the visions Verena had had about the town and about me. I finally decided that I couldn't kill this girl. I took her to where her watcher's shop was and pushed her inside the doorway where she'd be safe. * * * * * "And, as the diaries state, I disappeared," Jäzen concluded. He stopped to think a minute. "Actually that's not entirely true. I saught the slayer out about a week later. I wanted to know how she got the locket. "She told me that it had been handed down from mother to daughter for several generations. She was told to wear it for protection. When she asked why, I told her about the day I had given it to her great-great-great, etc., grandmother. I don't know what possessed her to believe me, but she did. On top of that, she gave me the locket and had me look inside. "When I did, I understood. The pictures that stared back at me, the ones she had been told were her protectors were the miniature portraits an artist friend of mine had drawn of my sister and I. I took the locket and swore on it to change my ways." They walked on in silence for a while, neither of them willing to break the silence. Finally, Buffy brushed a tear from her cheek and asked, "So what have you been doing for the last 125 years? Hiding?" "Actually, I traveled quite extensively," he answered. "I learned several other languages and kept myself informed of what was going on with other vampire and the slayers, as well. For a good part of those years, I managed to stay informed, even though I was seemingly no longer in touch with the world." They walked on, and he started laughing. "What's so funny," she asked. "The few years I was out of touch," he explained. "Imaging, a 300 year old man being stupid enough to get stuck in East Germany when they closed the country. Worse! I was stuck in Mecklenburg! The province that was legendary for being 100 years behind everyone else! Oh well, I managed to get out of that situation... eventually." Buffy smiled as they continued walking. Their route took them to the front of the high school. "Oh," when she realized where they were, "we should go in and talk to Giles. He'll want to hear about all this." "Lead on, My Lady," Jäzen said with a bow. * * * * * The Black Fire Blackfire42@hotmail.com ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com - - ------------------------------ Date: Tue, 24 Feb 1998 18:18:58 -0500 (EST) From: Robert Rhoades Subject: BUFFYFIC: Request proofreaders, Well, I've done it again. The school's computer lost my address book, I feel foolish about it. So, I have to please ask those who were signed up as a proofreader, and/or anyone new willing to help me w/ Sins of the Mother- Please reply to me (privatly). I just finished part seven and I need people willing to help me with grammar and stuff. I first must give this warning, I need only two people who are mature enough for R rated material, this chapter gets a bit grahpic, violence and language wise. - -Robbie Rhoades (a.k.a. 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