From: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com (Buffyfic-digest) To: buffyfic-digest@lists.xmission.com Subject: Buffyfic-digest V2 #49 Reply-To: buffyfic@xmission.com Sender: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com Errors-To: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com Precedence: bulk Buffyfic-digest Wednesday, March 4 1998 Volume 02 : Number 049 In this issue: BUFFYFIC: Hope (12/?) BUFFYFIC: Hope (13/?) BUFFYFIC: Hope (14/?) BUFFYFIC: Hope (15/?) BUFFYFIC: Our Hearts Will Go On 1/? See the end of the digest for information on subscribing to the buffyfic or buffyfic-digest mailing lists and on how to retrieve back issues. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Wed, 04 Mar 1998 17:17:40 PST From: "Sara Barton" Subject: BUFFYFIC: Hope (12/?) Author: Sara B. Sara114@hotmail.com Rating: Varies...will be posted at beginning of each part. Disclaimer: Buffy the Vampire Slayer, its characters, yada yada yada belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, Sandollar, WB, and Fox.... I'm just borrowing them, (although I wish Angel was mine!) Everything else belongs to me! Author's note: This is your usual generic story. Angel is still good, so basically in my story surprise/innocence didn't happen. Willow and Oz are together, and Xander and Cordy are still hiding their secret utility closet rondevu's. This is going to be a long story, and will take some time so be patient with me. I'm not very good at story telling, so if this totally sucks and isn't read-worthy, just let me know.Oh yeah, and I want feedback, feedback, and more feedback. I don't care if it's good or bad, just tell me what you thought of it. PART 12 PG Buffy slowly trudged home, taking in her surroundings. She basked in the sun’s warm rays, listened to the birds chirping, and watched the small puffy clouds move against the pale blue sky. She felt like collapsing. Not because of exhaustion, but because she felt so hopeless, so alone. The Slayer walked up the steps, to her front door. She took out her key and opened it. “Hope?” she called out to the thick silence. “Are you here? It’s me, Buffy.” She shut the door behind her, making sure it was locked. Hope came bounding out from the kitchen and threw her arms around Buffy. “I’m so glad your okay! Oh my, you look awful!” “Gee, that seems to be the universal reaction to my present looks.” “I’m sorry, Buffy. You just look like you’ve been through hell.” “Sure, if you’re into understatements. So how are you doing?” Hope sat down on the stairs. “I am okay, I think. So much has happened in the past twenty-four hours. I’m still trying to take it all in.” The Slayer sat down next to her. “It will be weird at first, but trust me. Soon it will become an everyday thing, just like breathing.” “Giles told me about those vampires last night...Spike and Drusilla. What happened?” “Let me take a shower and I will tell you.” Buffy said, walking up the stairs. “How about you make some coffee?” “Sure. Oh, I’m making soup, do you want some?” “That would be great. Thanks.” Buffy made her way up the stairs to her bedroom. She shut the door behind her and collapsed on her bed. “Oh God,” she cried to herself, “How am I going to get through this day?” Buffy forced herself to get up. “I have to think clearly.” She sauntered over to her dresser and looked into the mirror. It was the first good look she has gotten of herself since yesterday. “Oh man, I do look like hell.” She peeled off her clothes and wrapped a bath towel around her small body, and went to the bathroom. Shutting and locking the door, she removed her towel and got into the shower. The hot water hit her body softly. It was the first time since yesterday that she felt relaxed. The raw skin on her wrists stung as the water made its way over her body, but she ignored the pain. Buffy washed her hair and body with her favorite peach shampoo and soap that she had gotten for her 17th birthday. After twenty minutes, she made herself shut the water off, not wanting to come out like a prune. Buffy left the bathroom and went back to her room. She sat down in a chair and examined her reflection in a small hand mirror. “Oh crap,” she said, as she noticed the dark circles under her eyes and the red blemish on her cheek. “This is not what I needed right now.” She applied a light coat of makeup, blow-dried and styled her hair, and put on her favorite pink tank top and pair of blue jeans. After finally feeling good about her appearance, she decided to join Hope in the kitchen. ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com - - ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 04 Mar 1998 17:19:02 PST From: "Sara Barton" Subject: BUFFYFIC: Hope (13/?) PART 13 G In a dark room, two voices spoke out in the dead silence. “Spike?” “Yes, luv?” “Is it time yet?” “No, luv. Be patient.” “But I can’t wait. I want my party.” “Soon, luv. Soon.” ******** “Feeling better?” Hope asked, when she saw her friend emerge from the hallway and sit down on the couch. “Yeah, a little.” Buffy responded. Hope handed her a cup of coffee and bowl of soup. “Thanks,” she said, and took a bite. “This is really good. I didn’t realize how hungry is was.” “So, do you mind telling me what happened?” Hope asked. When she saw Buffy grimace, she quickly added, “But if you don’t’ want to, that’s okay. I don’t want, well, I just,” she was trying to find the right words. “Its just that, well, I’m worried about you. I know we haven’t known each other for very long, but I feel like I’ve known you all my life.” Buffy was touched by her honesty. She felt guilty for being so suspicious of Hope. Even though she still felt an aura coming off of Hope, she was extremely comfortable around her new friend. “I don’t mind telling you about what happened.” The Slayer relived the night through her words as she retold the story to Hope. “And right now he is sitting there...just waiting...” ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com - - ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 04 Mar 1998 17:20:57 PST From: "Sara Barton" Subject: BUFFYFIC: Hope (14/?) Author: Sara B. Sara114@hotmail.com Rating: Varies...will be posted at beginning of each part. Disclaimer: Buffy the Vampire Slayer, its characters, yada yada yada belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, Sandollar, WB, and Fox.... I'm just borrowing them, (although I wish Angel was mine!) Everything else belongs to me! Author's note: This is your usual generic story. Angel is still good, so basically in my story surprise/innocence didn't happen. Willow and Oz are together, and Xander and Cordy are still hiding their secret utility closet rondevu's. This is going to be a long story, and will take some time so be patient with me. I'm not very good at story telling, so if this totally sucks and isn't read-worthy, just let me know.Oh yeah, and I want feedback, feedback, and more feedback. I don't care if it's good or bad, just tell me what you thought of it. PART 14 R **WARNING: This part gets really graphic and might be disturbing for some people. Reader discretion is adivsed.** Angel sat in the dark corner of the musty room, hiding from the window. The curtain didn’t completely cover the deadly rays of the sun. He had been sitting there for hours, waiting. Waiting to live, waiting to die. Angel was scared. The usually fearless vampire was so scared of what was going to happen. Not just to him, but to Buffy. He would never forgive himself if something happened to her. If Spike and Drusilla tried to make him evil again, he would drive a stake through his heart before they got the chance. He just sat there, thinking. It was all he could do. He thought of the past, of the horrible things he had done. He remembered killing Mira. He thought about how he hadn’t told his friends the whole story. He hadn’t lied to them, but he withheld some information. Gruesome information. Yes, Angelus had killed her family, mutilating them. Gouging out their eyes, bashing their heads in, ripping their still beating hears out of their chests. Sucking every bit of blood out of their bodies that he could get. He remembered grabbing her little puppy from the backyard. He thing was only about four months old. Angelus had nailed the puppies tiny body to the wall above her families bodies. He could still see Mira’s face when she had dashed through her front door so show her mother the gift her watcher had given to her. The sapphire pendant. The happy look on her face twisting into utter horror. And when the girl had found him in the graveyard, he had said “Your family tasted sooo good!” She tried to fight him, but couldn’t. She didn’t have the will. The thing that Angel didn’t tell them was that she didn’t just give up after a fight, he had abused her. Angelus had pushed her down on the ground, and tore her clothes off. She laid there, frightened, shocked, in fear of him, and didn’t struggle when he did the most horrible thing he could do to a girl, he raped her. He remembered her crying, sobbing, shaking. When she couldn’t take it anymore, she told him to kill her, and he did. He leaned down on her naked body, turned her head to the side, exposing the soft, white flesh on her neck, and slowly sunk his fangs into her jugular. He sucked every ounce of blood that was in her body. And when he had finished, he left her there, walking away without a second thought. Angel shuddered. He loathed himself. He hated thinking about the things he had done in the past. All the killing, the hurting, the pain. A tear fell down his pale face. So much guilt filled his body. He choked back the emerging sob. His body quivered. He reached up and grabbed the cross he wore around his neck. Despite the burns that it caused him, he wore it anyway. It helped calm him. Angel looked down at his hand and gazed at the claddagh ring, the heart pointing toward him, representing his love for Buffy. Just this calmed him down. All of a sudden he was ripped from his thoughts to the sound of a key in the door. He watched the doorknob slowly turn, and the door creep open. . ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com - - ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 04 Mar 1998 17:27:47 PST From: "Sara Barton" Subject: BUFFYFIC: Hope (15/?) Author: Sara B. Sara114@hotmail.com Rating: Varies...will be posted at beginning of each part. Disclaimer: Buffy the Vampire Slayer, its characters, yada yada yada belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, Sandollar, WB, and Fox.... I'm just borrowing them, (although I wish Angel was mine!) Everything else belongs to me! Author's note: This is your usual generic story. Angel is still good, so basically in my story surprise/innocence didn't happen. Willow and Oz are together, and Xander and Cordy are still hiding their secret utility closet rondevu's. This is going to be a long story, and will take some time so be patient with me. I'm not very good at story telling, so if this totally sucks and isn't read-worthy, just let me know.Oh yeah, and I want feedback, feedback, and more feedback. I don't care if it's good or bad, just tell me what you thought of it. PART 15 PG (language) Ring. “Shit.” Ring. “Don’t you dare answer that phone.” Ring. “But...” Ring. “NO!” Ring. “It might be Buffy..” “Ugggh!” Xander reached over and grabbed the phone. Breathlessly, he answered. “Hello?” “Xander?” a worried voice said. “Uh, yeah?” “This is Giles. Something terrible has happened.” “What? Is everything okay?” Cordelia shot him a look of disgust. “No, unfortunately not. There is a huge crisis on our hands. Everything is in a complete disarray. I made a costly error. My inaccuracy could be the downfall of everything...” “Whoa, Whoa, Slow down. What is going on?” Xander asked, greatly concerned. He looked at Cordelia, who sensed his worry. “I don’t have time to explain over the phone, just get to the library right now. Call Cordelia and have her come too.” “Right...right. What about Willow?” “I’ve already called and informed her. Now hurry.” “Wait--Giles!” Xander called, but Giles had already slammed down the receiver. Xander hung up the phone. “What’s going on?” Cordelia asked, her voice filled with fear and concern. “I don’t know, but something bad has happened. Giles, he sounded, so, un-Giles like. He seemed so scared.” He gazed up at her face. “Will everything be okay?” She whispered, not wanting to reveal her fear, but he already felt it. Suddenly her hugged her fiercely, not wanting to let go, not wanting to go to the library, or find out the horrible news that awaited them. He wanted to protect her from the world, but he couldn’t. She grabbed his face and kissed him. “We have to leave. We need to help Giles and Buffy.” He nodded, grasped her small hand, and the two teenagers left Xander’s house. ******* “I wonder what he is doing right now...” Buffy said. “I hope he is okay...” “He is probably thinking of you.” Hope replied. “You think so?” “I know so. I can see the love you share just by the looks you give each other. Its like an electric current running on high.” The Slayer smiled at her new friend. “You know, Hope, I have to be honest with you. When we first met, I didn’t trust you.” She seemed a bit hurt. “What do you mean?” “Well, when I’m near you, I get this weird feeling. It’s like, you give off this sensation, these funky vibes. Remember when we shook hands? When you touched me, you sent these tingles throughout my body.” She glanced at Hope, you looked confused. “Don’t get me wrong, I do like you, but there is something different about you.” “Well, I can’t say that I felt the exact same way, but, when I met you, something was different. It was like, I was supposed to meet you...I had a reason for it. Almost like fate.” She looked away. “Do you think it has anything to do with Mira?” “I have no clue.” Buffy sat and pondered for a moment. “Where is your necklace?” “Oh, it’s right here.” She pulled it out of her bag. “Can I see it?” “Sure.” She handed the pendant to Buffy. The Slayer took it from her. She fingered it, staring into it. It was mesmerizing, like a deep ocean of blue, swimming in her head. She stared hard into it, going deeper and deeper past the surface. She was suddenly lost in its beauty. Buffy felt like was *in* the stone. Her head started to spin. She felt dizzy, and dropped the necklace. Then everything when black. ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com - - ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 4 Mar 1998 19:26:50 -0800 (PST) From: michele v Subject: BUFFYFIC: Our Hearts Will Go On 1/? TITLE: Our Hearts Will Go On 1/? AUTHOR: Michele V EMAIL ADDRESS: glynisgrl33@yahoo.com DISTRIBUTION: Please ask first FEEDBACK: Yes, especially since this is my first fic-but since it is, please don't be too harsh SPOILER: What's My Line 1&2 RATING PG-13 SUMMARY: A Buffy/Angel story that takes place after What's My Line 1 & 2, with some added Willow/Oz and Xander/Cordelia. Also, Buffy and the gang find out about the return of the Master- in some form. CONTENT WARNING: Some kissing,talk of sex, and a sexual situation(nothing graphic at all) DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of the characters except for one, whose name is unknown as of now-but will be included in Part 2 and possibly all remaining parts of this. All of the other characters belong to Joss Whedon and the WB. No copywrite infringement is intended. NOTE: I wrote this after "What's My Line 2", therefor without knowing that something similar to this *sort of* happens in "Surprise" ********** PART 1 SUNNYDALE HIGH SCHOOL Willow spotted Buffy hurrying down the hallway ahead of her. "Buffy! Hey, wait up!" she called as she ran to catch up with her. Buffy waited for her friend. "Hey Will. What's up?" Willow frowned. "Will- what's wrong? What aren't you telling me?," Buffy asked suspiciously. "Well I saw something that I really didn't want to and didn't need to see. I saw- oh boy, you are never gonna believe this-" "Well I don't really need to believe it- I just need to know. What is it, Will?" Buffy asked impatiently. Willow sighed. "Ok, well I was in the library helping Giles with something before and Xander was there and so was Cordelia- and Giles asked Xander to go find a book on some- thing- and Cordelia to help him-so they went. And I was left to do research on the computer, of course, but I finished before Xander and Cordelia found the book so I went in the back to help them and-" Willow paused. "And?" Buffy asked anxiously. Willow frowned. "I saw Xander and Cordelia making out in front of the Encyclopedias." "Wow, you really took note of where they were standing-But maybe it wasn;t what you thought it was," Buffy said trying to give Willow some hope. Willow shook her head. "No, no- I know what I saw. And I saw Xander and Cordelia totally lip locked." "Maybe one of them passed out and needed mouth to mouth," Buffy suggested jokingly. "Buffy this is not funny- I mean- it's Xander and Cordelia here- Xander hates Cordelia-Cordelia hates Xander- That's like, that's like Tom the cat kissing Jerry the mouse...uh, well, you know what I mean" "True, but haven't you ever heard of the saying that opposites attract? I mean as ick-worthy as it is, maybe Xander and Cordelia are an example of that." "Well I don't like *that* example. And the worst part is, I'm his best friend- you are too- and he didn't even tell us," Willow said with anger. "Maybe he was afraid of our reaction. I mean it is Cordelia-she was supposed to be his- and our - sworn enemy- and now he's kissing her," Buffy suggested. "Maybe- but I'm still mad at him. I don't understand what he sees in her- he never saw anything in her before except popular snotiness- I thought she would be the last person that he'd ever date. But now this happened, and now it's like-" Willow stopped with a frown. "It's like what?" Buffy asked trying to be understanding. "It's like I'm the last person he'd ever date," Willow said with tears forming in her eyes. She continued. "Like Cordelia's good enough for him- and I-his best friend-am not." The tears began falling down her face. "Hey, it's not you Willow-Xander's probably just going through those hormonal changes that men tend to go through. I'm sure he never meant it to be like that," Buffy said as she hugged her friend. Willow pulled away to look at Buffy, wiping her tears. "Really?" "*Really*"Buffy repeated. "Well, I'm still mad at him. I don't know if I'm even gonna talk to him. I'll let him tell me- or us, that is." "We'll see about that. Somehow, I think you will." The two started walking again. "So, who's this Oz guy that was so heroic as to risk himself getting shot in the arm so that you wouldn't?" Buffy asked changing the subject. "Oz? Oz is no one- he's just this guy- that I know." "A guy that you know. Very informative Will," "Ok, well, we were both chosen for this computer thing at the Career Fair, so we've been talking," Willow told her. "By the way, how did that whole Slayer goodbye thing go between you and Kendra?," Willow asked changing the subject. "Was there any hugging or crying going on?" she continued. Buffy shook her head at her friend with a grin. "You were quick to change the subject. But no, no hugging. Just a goodbye. Kendra has that "No Huggy Huggy, Touchy Touchy," policy." "Oh, right. So- I guess that means there was no crying," Willow answered for Buffy. "Definitely a negative. But even though I was counting the days until she'd leave, it was a little sad to see her go. I guess cause we had something in common. I'm ok now, though." Willow smiled. "Well, good. So have you and Angel been playing helpless patient and nurse lately?" Willow asked anxious to hear the answer. "Actually, me and Angel haven't even talked or seen each other since the night at the church. Kendra was kind enough to volunteer to take him home safely that night so that I could get home to sleep." Willow couldn't believe it. "Wow, you mean you're not even worried that he could not be ok?" "I thought about it of course. But I thought it would be better if he could rest and if I was was with him, there definitely would be no resting going on," Buffy explained. Willow nodded in agreement. "Oh, I see your point. I bet you miss his kisses though." "You could say that. I've definitely been going through some *major* withdrawal," Buffy agreed. Xander came up behind the two of them just in time to hear Buffy's last sentence. "Withdrawal! Buffy, you're not taking drugs now are you? 'Cause that's what that DARE Program is all bout- Saying *no* to drugs." Buffy grinned. "No Xander, Buffy was talking about withdrawal from Angel's kisses- which is probably what you're going through now without Cordelia's kisses!" Willow shot at him with anger. Xander's eyes widened in shock. He looked at Buffy. Buffy shrugged. "What can I say, Xand- secrets secrets are no fun-especially when you keep them from your best friends." Xander shook his head in disbelief. "I don't kn-I don't know what you're talking about," he said trying to cover everything up. Buffy looked at Willow. "Willow?" she asked giving her the cue to explain. "I-I saw you two in the library-when you were looking for that book-I went to help you-and I saw you two-kissing," she told Xander. "Oh, boy... Gosh...I'm sorry, Will. We didn't mean for you-or anyone to see that. We- Look, I have no idea what is going on between me and Cordelia. I mean we get into these fights and then we kiss-and it's completely-completely weird. I mean I don't understand it and I know you two don't either. Right now I'm just trying to sort everything out. And that's why I didn't tell you guys. I mean it's me and- Cordelia- we're not supposed to be together. I mean that's like Tom and Jerry kissing each other-Well,you know-you know what I'm saying." Willow smiled. "I said the same thing," she told him. "Xander like I told Willow before, you're probably going through hormonal changes that men tend to go through," Buffy explained. Xander grinned. "Maybe. I just hope you two will forgive me for not telling," he pleaded. Buffy grinned. "You're forgiven-by me at least." "Willow?" Xander asked. "I forgive you-but only this once Xander-you not tell us something again and I'll-I'll..." Willow paused. Xander smiled. "Thanks you guys. I promise- it'll *never* happen again." "So-" Willow said changing the subject once again,"Where were we?" "Well I know that I was about to tell Buffy that withdrawal from Angel's kisses is even worse then from drugs and that she could say no to that too.. but then.."Xander started. Willow finished for him. "We kinda got into a different conversation. But about what you were gonna say," Willow said with a smile,"I don't think she'd wanna say no to that." Xander smiled at her then turned to Buffy. "How is our vampish fiend anyway? Not that I really care but he just looked like he was in major pain the other night- definitely a good thing." "Actually," she explained again," I haven't seen him since that night. But, I'm sure he's fine." "Darn!" Xander said as he stomped his foot. Willow and Buffy gave him "the look." "Sorry, that just came out unplanned-like a reflex," Xander explained. "Well you better try to control that reflex or my reflex will be to tape your mouth shut," Buffy warned him jokingly. "Whoa-Buff, I knew you were a violent one- with evil creatures but I didn't think you'd be that way with friends. I mean I 'll try but a reflex is a reflex- pretty much uncontrollable. Oh, by the way, Buff, the G-man was looking for you- I was supposed to tell you. Seemed pretty urgent." "Gee, thanks for telling me now that class starts in like a minute." Xander spotted Giles approaching them. "Well, it must be pretty important 'cause here he comes now," he informed Buffy and motioned to him. "Buffy!" Giles called as he caught site of her. Buffy, Xander, and Willow walked over to him. "Giles, hey. What's up?" Buffy asked him. "Buffy I need to see you in the library- in five minutes." Buffy sighed. "Giles, can this wait? 'Cause I have history now and you know how much I'm faltering in that class." Giles shook his head. "Buffy, this is extremely urgent. It'll only take a few minutes," he told her. "Ok. Ill be right there," she obeyed. She turned to her two friends. "I'll see you guys at lunch." Xander nodded. "Ok, best of luck Buff! You may need it with whatever this urgent thing is." "See ya," Willow told her. SCHOOL LIBRARY Giles was relieved when he saw Buffy come through the library doors. "Oh, good. You're here." "What you didn't trust that I'd come?" Buffy asked him slightly annoyed. Giles shook his head. "Well, no. No it's just-" he began. Buffy interrupted shaking her head. "Ok, Giles, What's up? What is this extremely urgent thing that you *need* to tell me about?" she asked impatiently. Giles sighed. "Sit down," he told her. "Gosh this must be bad. When someone asks you to sit down before they tell you something, you know it can *never* be a good thing," she said as she sat. "So, what is this terrible thing?" she asked. "Well, it's two things actually," he told her. "Oh goody. So it's the more problems the merrier kind of deal. So, go head, share." Giles sighed. "Well, I went back to what remains of the church that Druscilla's healing ritual was performed in a few nights ago.." he began. "And?" Buffy asked impatiently. "And while I was looking through the remains of it, I found this," he continued as he pulled a piece of red cloth out of his pocket and handed it to Buffy. "Hmm..a piece of red cloth, probably from a shirt or something," she said as she examined it in her hands, "Giles what does this have to do with- anything?" she asked. "Well, it's not just a piece of cloth off of just anyone's shirt.." he began. "Oooo-could it be-I mean maybe it's a piece of one of Gavin Rossdale's shirts. Can I keep it then- for a souvenir?" Buffy said jokingly. "Gavin Rossdale- I don't believe I've heard of a Gavin Rossdale. Who-Who is he?" Giles asked her. "No one- never mind." Buffy stared down at the torn piece of clothing in her hands. "Wait a sec," she said realizing something,"Spike was wearing a shirt that looked something like this the night that we were in the church and I...killed.." She paused and her eyes widened. "When a vampire is killed every part of it turns to dust, except anything that it may be holding, such as a weapon, but everything else becomes dust, including all of its clothing," he began explaining. "Him," Buffy said finishing her sentence from before, "Oh my gosh." "But when I looked underneath all of the debris, I found not only a piece of his clothing but not a sign of vampire dust in the area in which they were supposed to be killed. It still would have been visible even days later, but since there was none, it would mean that.." Giles continued explaining but was interrupted by Buffy who finished his sentence for him. "Spike and Druscilla are alive," she finished. Giles nodded. "I'm afraid so. Now, have you spoken to Angel at all since that night?" Buffy shook her head. "I haven't yet. I thought I should leave him to recuperate," she started. Giles interrupted. "Well I think it would be a good idea to go see hi, tonight. To- make sure that he's al right. With Druscilla still alive and uncured, he could be in great danger of her and Spike," he warned her. Buffy became a little nervous at what he said. "Great danger? Are we talking death here?" she asked him. "Buffy he was nearly killed by Spike's last attempt to cure her, and if that hasn't worked, well- there's no telling what they'll do next." Buffy agreed. "Ok, so it's Destination Angel's then." "Wait, Buffy. As I said before, that us only one of the problems." "Uh, Giles- I wasn't going anywhere. Remember, school? Well, it's still in session in case you didn't know. And I don't need Principle Snyder to find out that I ditched the rest of the day," Buffy reminded him. Giles agreed. "Oh, yes. That's right. Well anyway, I was researching that Watcher Diaries.." Buffy rolled her eyes and interrupted him. "Really Giles? Cause I thought you always were researching in Reader's Digest," she joked. Giles gave her a stern look. "Continue," she told him. "Well as I was researching, I found out that six months after the Master dies, on the six day, and the six hour, his or her spirit comes back in the form of the opposite sex. It then, goes after the person who killed him or her, along with a team of all the vampires existing at that time," he explained. "Sixth month, sixth day, sixth hour..Giles are you noticing this 666 ocult reference that I'm noticing?"she asked him. "Yes and I believe that has something to do with the fact that the Master is like a vampires versian of the Christian religion's "Anichrist," he explained. "Ok, so anyway, the person who killed the Master," Buffy observed, "That would be me. So why don't they just say "the slayer" cause I thought that's always the person he fights during the Prophecy." "Well, in a few earlier cases," Giles explained,"the Slayer was not the person who killed him or her. Sometimes, it was just a person who happened to be there." Buffy shook her head in confusion. "You keep saying "him or her." Are you saying that the Master could be female?" she asked him. "Well, yes. There have been some female masters in the past, and quite powerful ones, I might add," he explained. "Wow. Talk about girl power. And I thought women only ruled in the 90's." "Yes and the spirit oh the Master that is supposed to be coming will be female, since it's spirit is always the opposite sex." Buffy took everything in and tried putting it into her own words. "Ok, so this master spirit girl, she's coming- six months after the Master's death- which would be- next month-and on the sixth day- Giles, today is the 15th- that means that ghost girl will be coming in only three weeks, and I'm guessing she's *no* Casper-which means we're gonna need a *lot* of time to prepare for it- and we don't even know much of anything about it- I mean it's a spirit,worse then your ordinary poltergeist, and it's the Masters-opposite sex or not- Giles, how the hell are we gonna kill this thing!? Or..make it go away?" Giles took off his glasses and rubbed his eyes in distress. He looked at Buffy who stood waiting for an answer. One that he didn't have. "I-I don't know," he told her truthfully. Buffy couldn't believe it. "You don't know?! You're the Watcher- You're supposed to know these things.... Just tell me one thing- Am I supposed to die from this?" she asked him with tears almost beginning to form in her eyes. Giles shook his head. "No, not that I'm aware if. All that's listed in the Watcher Diaries is what I've told you. That is why, I need you to find out from Angel, everything he knows about this," he told her. Buffy finally calmed down and returned to her normal self. "Ok, well, I'll make sure I make some time in between kisses for us to chat about it," she told him. "Buffy, this is nothing to joke about. You must be serious." "I was being serious just now," she joked again. Giles gave Buffy the same stern look from before. "Ok, Ok, I'll make sure that I talk to him about it. And by the way, I was being serious just a few minutes before the other thing I said. Maybe a little *too* serious. Anyway, are we done here cause I have to get to class now?" Giles nodded. "Ok then I better go. See ya, Giles," she said as she walked out the library doors. LATER ON IN THE SCHOOL DAY *bell rings* Willow and Xander walked together out of the classroom that they were just in and down the halls. Approaching them was Cordelia, Devon, and Oz. Willow smiled at the sight of Oz. When they were in speaking range Xander acknowledged Cordelia."Well, would you look who it is," Xander said looking at her. "What's that supposed to mean?" she asked him. "Nothing. Just, look who it is- it's you." "And your point is?" "No point. I was just- acknowledging your presence," he told her. "Why?" she asked him in a snotty voice. "Never mind. I don't wanna know. Come on Devon. Let's go." She pulled Devon with her down the halls. Oz stayed behind. "Hi," he said looking at Willow. "Hey Oz," she said smiling. "Weren't you supposed to leave with them," Willow asked referring to Cordelia and Devon. "Well, see, I wanted to know if you were going to the Bronze tonight," he explained. "Oh. Well, I don't know- I mean I gotta check with my friends to see if their going or not," she told him. "Why do you wanna know?" she asked him. "Well my band is gonna be playing there tonight and if you were going, then you'd get to see us play. And, you know, maybe when we're done playing, you and I could maybe hang out together for a little while if it was cool with you," he told her. "Oh, yeah, that, that would be cool-with me. Yeah." "So you're going then?" Oz asked her. "Yeah. I'll be there," she told him. "Alright, well I'll see you then." "Yeah, see ya," she said with a smile. She turned and watched him walk away. "Willow? Hello? Anyone there?" Xander called waving his hands in front of her face. "Oh, yeah. Sorry, Xand." "That's ok. So, I guess we're Bronze bound tonight, huh?" Xander asked. "Yeah," she answered with a smile across her face. "Well, that'll work out good. I can dance with Cordelia while Devon's busy singing and you can stare at Oz, the great and powerful." "Xander!" "Sorry, couldn't stop myself there. The Wizard of Oz thing was gonna come up some time. And then was the time." "By the way, why were you and Cordelia fighting back there. I thought you guys were ok with each other now." Willow asked confused slightly. "We are ok, but Devon and Oz were there. We can't act like love birds in front of them. Not that we are or anything," he explained. Xander noticed Buffy walking up ahead. "Hey, let's go see if Buffy can join us tonight," he told Willow. The two ran to catch up with her. "Hey Buff." "Hey guys." "So, Willow and I are going to the Bronze tonight. Feel like joining us?" he asked. "Well, I would but I'm gonna go check on Angel tonight. I have to find out stuff from him for Giles too," she told them. "Well, if it's for Giles then I guess you should," Xander said a little disappointed. "Oz is gonna be there," Willow told her excitedly. "And we're gonna hang out when his band's done playing." "And you said you two would never become a thing. It's already in the working," Buffy told her. Willow smiled. *bell rings* "Ooo, gotta get to class. I'll see you guys," Buffy said and then started to walk to her next class. Willow and Xander did the same. Buffy turned back around. "Willow!" she shouted down the hall. Willow turned around. "Good luck tonight." Willow smiled and they both turned and continued on to their next class. LATER THAT NIGHT ANGEL'S APARTMENT Buffy knocked on Angel's door."Angel?" she called. She tried to open it but it as locked of course. She knocked again. "Angel, it's just me .Open up." She waited then knocked once more. When he still didn't answer she decided to let herself in by kicking open the door. She walked in and closed the door behind her. "Angel?...Hello? Anybody home?" she called. *He's gotta be home. He's recuperating* she thought. Finally she came to the area where his bed was and found him sound asleep in it. She smiled at the sight of his sleeping figure, then got an idea. She went over to the phone and dialed her home phone number. "Mom? Hi. I'm over at Willow's- she's helping me study for this big history test and it looks like we won't be done till late tonight. So can I stay over and get a ride to school with her?...Yeah, it's ok with her parents...Ok, thanks a lot mom..I love you too. Bye." Buffy listened as her mom hung up and grinned mischeiviously at what she had just done. Then, as she was going to hang up the phone she was pulled back onto the bed behind her and on top of Angel who immediately leaned up and kissed her. They kissed again and soon the two were wrapped up in a whirl of passion. Angel began kissing down Buffy's face and to her neck. Buffy let out a slight moan as Angel kissed her neck. She then moved to claim his lips with hers again, afraid that if he kissed her neck any longer, he might go vamp on her. But soon she found his lips trailing back down the same path to her neck. She had to admit, it felt great when he kissed her there, but again, she didn't want him to lose his control. It was too late though- his lips were already there and the pleasure from him kissing her there, overwhelmed her. "Angel," she managed to get out, trying to make him stop, but what it really sounded like was a sigh of pleasure. After a moment, she called his name again, this time sounded more like her calling him. Still he didn't stop. "Mmm?" he just said as his lips trailed up and down her face to her neck. She let out a soft cry again as he kissed a sensitive spot that he hadn't kissed yet. Finally she was able to tell him. "Um, Angel, maybe you shouldn't kiss me there." Angel stopped and lifted his head to meet her eyes. He was a little confused. "Sorry-I thought you were enjoying it." Buffy blushed alittle."I was- I was- it's just-Well I was afraid you'd go vampire on me- No offense," she explained. Angel chuckled. "Why would you think that?" he asked with a smile. "Oh- I don't know, maybe because you-on a few occasions-have been known to go vamp on me while we were lip locked," she said with a slight grin. Angel shook his head. "Well, just so you know, that really only happens when I'm angry-or- I have something on my mind. But- I can control it otherwise," he explained to her with a smile. Buffy tried to fight back her impulse to ask him more, but couldn't. "Even if you're kissing my neck- the very same spot that you could be feeding on me from?" Angel's face saddened a bit. "I'm Sorry, that didn't come out the right way," she told him. Angel just looked away. Buffy took her hand and turned his face so that he faced her. "Hey, I trust you Angel, I do." Angel nodded, but still looked a little sad. "I know," he answered. Buffy changed the subject."Well, so anyway, I came here to see how you were-You're ok, right?" Angel nodded. "Yeah, I'm fine." "Ok, good-Is there anything I could do?" she asked with a smile. Angel grinned. "Well, you could start by, kissing me again." Buffy smiled back at him. "That I can definitely do," she said as she leaned down to kiss him. Their lips met for a few more kisses before they pulled away. "I've missed you," Angel said as their lips parted. "Been kinda lonely here-and without you," he continued. Buffy smiled. "Sorry I haven't come by- but I thought you'd need some time to rest and recuperate without any distractions," she explained. "Yeah, you're probably right," he told her with a smile. Buffy loved when he told her she was right. "Well, I'm here now-And we have the whole night to be together-I told my mom I was at Willow's so I can stay the night," she told him. Angel shook his head. "Buffy, that's very kind of you to be here, but I'm not sure it's such a good idea you spend the night." Buffy didn't understand. "Well, why not? If you're worried that you don't have an extra bed, you shouldn't cause I think were a little past sleeping in separate beds. I can just- sleep right here next to you," she said then patted a spot on the bed. "That's just it, Buffy. Don't you think it would be a little tempting being together in the same bed? I mean don't you thing we might end up wanting to-," "Have sex?" Buffy suggested bluntly. Angel seemed a little uncomfortable. "Well..yeah," he told her. "So- what's so wrong with that? I mean, we've been way past a cup of of coffee. We can't even go 5 minutes without kissing each other." "It's just- If I lose control Buffy, which I could, you could die. And hurting you is the last thing I want to do," he told her. "Angel, I know that-But I don't think you would. I trust you enough to know that you'd never hurt me, even in your vampire mode." Angel shook his head. "Buffy please- It's hard enough not to- please don't make it any harder," he begged. Buffy looked deeply into Angel's eyes. "Please Angel- I love you..I need you," she pleaded with him. Angel lightened a bit. "What caused the change of mind? Just before, you didn't even want me kissing you- and now-," Angel began, curious. "You told me you could control it- and I believe you. And I realized that we don't know how much time we'll have together. I mean, it was the scariest thing, you almost died the other night. And me, being the Slayer-Well,you know, Slayers are known to have short lives. I figure we should do..things..while we have the chance," she explained. Angel agreed. "Alright," he said with a slight nod. His eyes stared deeply into Buffy's.But there was something about them- something about his eyes that was different. It was as if they held an untold secret-as if Angel knew that something was about to tear him and Buffy apart. "Ok?" Buffy asked with a smile. "Ok," Angel replied grinning. Buffy leaned in and kissed him. "I love you, Buffy. I want you to know that," he told her. She kissed him again. "I know," she said with a smile. Angel looked as if he was waiting for her to say more. "I love you too," she finished finally. He smiled-but then that look appeared in his eyes again-the look of pain-of knowing something Buffy did not. Buffy kissed him again, then saw that look in his eyes. "Hey, what's wrong?" she asked concerned. "It's nothing- really." "Are you sure? I mean are you nervous or something?-'cause I'll admit that I am a little," she asked slightly worried. "No- I'm fine," Angel said with a smile. He then pulled her back down on him for a kiss. "Good," Buffy said as she pulled the covers up over them , coming back down on him, and kissing him. They kissed each other passionately for a few moments. Then Buffy took control and began kissing down Angel's face, nibbling on his jaw line and planting soft kisses down his neck. She then paused to help him remove his white tee-shirt, and began kissing him again from his collar bone down to his smooth chest. She then worked her way back up to his mouth as her hands ran up and down his arms and broad chest, feeling his muscles....beneath her touch. Their kiss lingered on for a while, before it was broken by Angel, who sat up in bed. "Angel, what's worng," Buffy asked concerned. Angel shook his head. "I can't. I can't do this Buffy...I'm sorry. I 'm so, sorry. You know I'd do anything for you Buffy, but I can't do this. I can't," Angel explained to her, quite upset. He looked almost as if he was about to cry and Buffy could sense that. She wrapped her arms around him, hugging him close to her. "It's ok Angel. It's ok-I understand. I shouldn't have..pressured you so much. I'm sorry," she whispered in his ear. Angel pulled away after a short while and laid back down on the bed. Buffy laid down also, resting her head against his shoulder. She turned to look at him. "Are you ok?" she asked him. Angel nodded. "Yeah, I'm ok," he replied in a sad tone. "I still love you,Angel. You know that, right?," she told him. "I know," he replied. Buffy gave him a little smile then settled her head on his chest and closed her eyes. Angel put an arm around her and did the same. Little did Buffy know that,inside, Angel really wasn't fine or ok-and she would soon not be either. To be continued... _________________________________________________________ DO YOU YAHOO!? Get your free @yahoo.com address at http://mail.yahoo.com - - ------------------------------ End of Buffyfic-digest V2 #49 ***************************** To subscribe to buffyfic or buffyfic-digest, send the command subscribe buffyfic-digest or subscribe buffyfic to majordomo@xmission.com. 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