From: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com (buffyfic-digest) To: buffyfic-digest@lists.xmission.com Subject: buffyfic-digest V2 #214 Reply-To: $SENDER Sender: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com Errors-To: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com Precedence: bulk buffyfic-digest Monday, June 1 1998 Volume 02 : Number 214 In this issue: BUFFYFIC: "Hell" 2/? BUFFYFIC: "Angelus's Scary Adventure [1/1] BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Question regarding the Codex Re: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Question regarding the Codex BUFFYFIC: Discuss: Angel's Scary Adventure BUFFYFIC: Help Me Understand 1/1 by Dreamscape205 See the end of the digest for information on (un)subscribing to the buffyfic or buffyfic-digest mailing lists and on how to retrieve back issues. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Mon, 1 Jun 1998 19:00:21 EDT From: Subject: BUFFYFIC: "Hell" 2/? "Hell" 2/? by Jaclyn Amy TITLE: Hell AUTHOR: Jaclyn Amy@aol.com DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of the characters from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. They belong to Joss Wheden, Mutant Enemy, 20th Century Fox, etc. RATING: PG-13 WARNING: Some of the scenes have some gory violence. If you don’t like that sort of thing, don’t read this. SPOILERS: None. SUMMARY: This takes place immediately after Becoming Parts 1 and 2. It’s pretty much my own episode after this. Enjoy! DISTRIBUTION: Ask me first. FEEDBACK: Please! AUTHOR’S NOTE: I have finals to study for, so these will probably come out sparatically. ***** "What’s going on, Giles? Why’d you call us out of first to be here?" Willow asked nervously. She and Oz were sitting at the table while Cordelia and Xander were groping by Giles office. "Damnit, Xander, Cordelia," he cursed. "We have more important things to be doing." "Chill, G-man," Xander said as he led Cordelia to join the others. "I’m sorry, but something terrible happened," he apologized. "You got that right," a voice said. A well-dressed man casually strolled into the library. "Excuse me," Giles started, "but the sign on the door says-" "I had figured my man Angel was here to stop Akathla, not to bring him forth. Boy, I was wrong." He walked closer to the table. "She went to him. She tried to stop him for you." He stared at Willow. "The curse worked but after Angel pulled the sword out. She had to kill him; not Angelus, but Angel. And she did. You trained her well." "Ohmigod," Willow whispered to herself, "how could she have after Xander told her…?" Xander looked away, sick with guilt. "Who are you?" Cordelia asked. "They call me the Whistler," he answered. Giles asked bitterly, "What do you want?" "She took off. You have to find her before it’s too late. If she doesn’t come back…" "How do you know about her?" Giles asked. "I’m an immortal demon sent to help her. I tried to warn her, but it was too late." Willow spoke, "Where is she? We’ve got to find her." "I can’t tell you; I really wish I could. All I can say is that she’s staying with a friend. You have to find her before you lose her forever. She can’t handle another loss. She can’t handle losing him, too." ***** "Good morning," Pike said to a sleepy Buffy. Groggily, Buffy dragged herself off the bed. Pike had generously offered it to her while he slept on the couch. The sunlight shined through the blinds as she looked at the clock. "8:45. I probably would be in the library talking to Giles about some prophesy or in math with Xander passing notes. I miss them so much." "So go back. You should be with your friends at school having a normal life." "I can’t go back." "Buffy-" "You don’t know the whole story. The police came just as I arrived at the crime scene. When they tried to arrest me, I hit the cop and went free. They probably have a warrant for my arrest by now. As I came home, I saved my mother from a vampire and told her I was the Slayer. She wanted me to explain, but I didn’t have time. She told me that if I walked out of the house I can’t come back. I had to leave. When I went back to the school to get the sword, the principal found me and expelled me. I can’t go back after that." He took a deep breath. "Fine, but at least call them." "I can’t do that." "How would you feel if one of them took off, not saying a word if they were alive, if they were healthy, if they had a place to live." "Alright." Buffy got out of bed and went to the phone. She slowly dialed the numbers to the school library. "Hello?" Willow answered. "Will?" Buffy asked cautiously. "Buffy? God, are you all right?" Tears of joy started flowing down her cheeks. Suddenly anger filled her voice. "How could you have just-" "Willow, I’m fine. I’m sorry I left, but I couldn’t stay. Not after I killed Angel." There was a moment of silence as she swallowed the lump in her throat. "Buffy, where are you?" "I don’t want you looking for me." "You have to come back. Everyone was-" "Will?" Buffy heard Principal Snyder’s voice in the background. "Is that Buffy Summers you are talking to?" "No," she lied. "It’s my mom. Well, I’ve got to go," she spoke to Buffy. "I hope you come home from your vacation soon." "Give me the phone," he ordered. "We’ll find you," he sneered. "You’re in way over your head, missy. And I sugest you don’t make anymore calls here." With that, he hung up the phone. ***** "Enjoying your visit?" All Angel could do was mumble a sound. Though he hadn’t been physically tortured, his memories were killing him painfully. //God, damnit,// he thought. //I have to get out of here.// Of course there was the obvious stake through the heart thing, but he wanted to be with Buffy. "I’m glad," the Buffy look-alike stepped over to where he was leaning against a wall. She gently rubbed her hand against the side of his unshaven face. Before his eyes, she turned into Drusilla. "Dru, what-" "Shhh," she whispered. "Look at me." Buffy/Dru took her two fingers and put them to her eyes. "Be in my eyes. Be in me." She gently covered his eyes with her hand. "See with your soul." When he opened his eyes, he was looking at Jenny Calender. She ran into him and sank to the ground. He held her up, unable to control himself. "Sorry, Jenny, this is where you get off." With a twist of the neck, she was dead. "I never get tired of doing that." //No,// his soul cried. //Jenny…// the vision was over as soon as it came. Now, instead of being at the school, he was watching through the window into Buffy’s house. "Hey, Giles," suddenly Buffy’s smile faded as she handed the phone to Willow and slumped on the floor. "What?! No, no!" Willow cried as she hung up the phone. More than anything Angel wanted to take back that moment, to not remember the pain, or at least not to remember feeling pleasure from it. Buffy/Dru removed her hand, and Angel was back. She morphed back to looking like Buffy. Tears ran down his cheeks as she gave him an ice cold stare. "Upset now?" she asked, tears started streaming down her face. "Good, keep suffering. Know what it’s like to lose everything that you ever cared about." He knew this wasn’t the real Buffy talking, but the words felt as horrible as if the real Buffy was saying them. //Someday,// he thought, //someday…// *** End Part 2 ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 1 Jun 1998 17:06:07 -0700 From: conmoon@cruzio.com (Connie) Subject: BUFFYFIC: "Angelus's Scary Adventure [1/1] Title: Angelus's Scary Adventure [1/1] Author: Connie Somerville Kotkin E-mail: conmoon@cruzio.com Disclaimer: Angelus and Drusilla belong to Joss, Mutant Enemy and the WB. CJ belongs to me. Rating: PG-13 Distribution: Anyone who wants it, just let me know. Feedback: Please. I love getting e-mail. Spoilers: I Only Have Eyes For You Summary: The title pretty much says it all. Author's Note: I wrote this after having a week long Buffy-fest with my mother. I have always thought that evil Angel was a wuss and re-watching the episodes where he was bad just reconfirmed that idea. So I wrote this story as a reflection of that for fun. Of course I am sure this could never have happened on the show, but this is my story and I can do as I please. If people can write stories with Angel and Willow being in love, then I can write a story about Angelus being tortured by a 4 year old. Let me know what you think. From "I Only Have Eyes For You" Angelus: (walks back) Let's get outta here. I need a real vile kill before sunup to wipe this crap out of my system. He pulls on his jacket over his still unbuttoned shirt. Drusilla comes up to him and growls. He snarls back. Drusilla: Of course. We'll find you a nice toddler. (snarls) And so our story begins.... Angelus's Scary Adventure by Connie S. Kotkin Drusilla, true to her word took Angelus to the local orphanage. It was late and the sun would be coming soon. She figured (if she could use her mind and had any sane thoughts) that this would be the fastest place for her Angel to purify himself. They walked in since an orphanage was opened to everyone. Angelus turned and looked at Drusilla. "This is exactly what I need. An easy killing spree." He grinned at her "Let the fun begin!" Drusilla laughed as the walked up the stairs to find some young ones. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ CJ wasn't tired. She knew that she should be asleep but she didn't want to. She knew that if the big lady found out she was up she would get in trouble but she just could not stay in bed. She grabbed her teddy bear and her special dagger that her parents gave her and walked towards the stairs. CJ was going to escape tonight. She knew she was little and might not get far but she would try like her parents had taught her to do. She was going to go find some nice people to live with, not wait for them to come to her. As she reached the stairs she heard the sound of someone coming up. A man and a woman She looked for a place to hide and could not find one. Before she could decide what to do the woman looked up and smiled at her. "My Angel, look at what I see." the woman said. CJ thought the woman was pretty but her voice was strange. The man looked up and smiled at her. "Well what do we have here? Aren't you supposed to be asleep little girl?" The man and woman walked up to CJ and knelt on the floor in front of her. She did not like them, she knew they were not supposed to be here and that they were bad. "You're BAAAAD people. I don't like you." CJ said to them. The man laughed at that. "Aren't you precious. My name is Angel and this is Drusilla. Who are you?" "You are not Angel, your Angelus, Angel is nice." CJ said and set her teddy bear down. She held her dagger in front of her. She had heard the name Drusilla before, her mother had talked about her and a spike. They were Real BAD people. "That's right, I am not and Angel. I'm a demon." his face changed and CJ laughed. "You don't look like a demon, you are silly vampire." She ran up to him and stabbed him with her dagger. She heard him scream out in pain as she turned away from him. "That was not very nice little girl. Miss Edith does not like bad little girls," the woman said as she reached out for CJ. CJ stabbed at her and decided that she wanted to play a game with them. They were vampires like her parents had told her about. Vampires killed her parents because her mother was a Slayer. She decided to hurt them the way they had hurt her. She picked up her teddy bear and ran towards her room. She knew they would follow her because her mother told her that vampires always chased people who they thought were weaker when they had hurt them. She looked over her shoulder and watched Angleus hold the silly lady as she screamed over the wound she gave her. It was not even that bad. That lady was a real baby, CJ thought. She was going to make them pay for killing her parents, to do what her mother had taught her to do. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Angelus could not believe the nerve of the little girl. She showed no fear when he showed her his true face, she just laughed at him and stabbed him with her dagger in the side. It had hurt, a lot. Then she had gone and stabbed Dru in the stomach and now she was running into another room, not running for her life, but running like she had no care in the world. The little girl was just what he needed to take his mind off of what had happened earlier tonight with the slayer. He turned back to Dru and sighed. Sometimes she was a real pain. "Drusilla go back to the house and get better. Tomorrow night I will take you out for a real treat." "But what about the girl?" "Don't worry about her, I will take care of her." Drusilla grinned at him and laughed. "Oh you are going to hurt her. I like it, will you tell me about it when you get back?" "You know I will. Let Spike take care of you, make him feel useful." He watched as she walked down the steps and walked to the room the little girl had gone into. It was pitch black and he could see no hint of the girl. "I know you are in here. Come out come out where ever you are," he softly sung. He heard a noise behind him and walked over to the closet. He grinned as he pulled it open. He walked in and looked around. There was just clothes and other toys in it. He heard a sound and turned around and saw the brown eyes of the girl staring at him. She stood in the room, in front of the bed holding her black teddy bear. "There you are. I see you like to play games, well here is one for you." He started to walk out of the closet when his feet started to burn. He jumped back in pain. "What the hell is this?" He tried to walk out again and felt the pain and moved back. The little girl continued to stare at him while he tried to get out. "My mommy told me that vampires did not like God water. She gave me some." "What are you planning to do to me little girl? This won't hold me back for long." "No, this will." She walked over to her bed and jumped on it. Next to it was a window, she pulled on the curtain and opened it, the room slowly began to lighten up. "Morning is coming. Sun make vampire go 'bye-bye.'" Angelus was worried, this was not your typical toddler, she knew things that most people did not know. "How old are you?" "I just turned 4." "What are you going to do with me?" he asked. He was starting to get scared. The sun was starting to come up in the sky and he could feel the rays on his skin. The window was directly in front of him and there was nowhere for him to hide from the sun. "Vampires killed by mommy cause she killed them. I'm gonna make you pay for that." She walked up to the door and threw some holy water at him. He shrieked as it hit his face. She closed the door and Angelus knew he was in for a long wait. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ CJ went back in bed and went to sleep. A couple of hours later the nice lady came in to wake her up. It was 9 o'clock and she got out of bed and went to her closet. The sunlight streamed through her room onto her closet. She knew that when she opened it the light would hurt Angelus. She opened it and watched as he tried to hide in the corner, away from the sun. She laughed at him. "I am gonna watch t.v. What do you wanna watch?" "I don't want to watch television you brat. Just wait till I get out of here. You will regret this." "You won't hurt me, your a big baby. Angel told me so." "What are you talking about, I am Angel." "Na-uh, Angel is floating in heather, he told me all about you." CJ sat on her bed and put her dress on. Then she turned around to watch t.v. "You can talk to Angel's soul?" CJ nodded her head. "He is very nice and not a baby like you are. He is gonna come back soon. Barney is on so be quiet or I will throw more water on you." CJ grabbed her teddy bear and started to sing along with the song. "I love you, you love me, We're a happy family with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you, won't you say you love me too." Angelus groaned. This was worse than any torture he had ever devised for Dru. He hoped he could last the day. As soon as night came he was going to enjoy killing this little girl. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ CJ spent all day in her room with Angelus. She left the closet door open until Angelus's clothes had started to smoke and he begged her to close the door. She closed it a little bit but made sure that the sun still affected him. When she got bored with TV she decided that she wanted to play with Angelus. No one ever played with her since her mother had died. What to play though. She looked under her bed and saw Candyland. She walked to the closet and put it down. Then she went and got her mother's special stick. She sat down in front of her closet and set up the game. Angelus looked up at her. Sweat was running down his face and part of his skin was blistered. "What are you doing now?" he asked. "We are going to play Candyland." He tried to snarl at her. "I am not going to be playing any game with you." She picked up her mother's stick and poked him on the arm, he sat up and yelled out in pain. He looked down at his arm, there was a big hole and blood was flowing out. He could feel himself getting weaker. "This is my mom's special stick, the wounds take a long time to heal. What color do you want to be?" she asked as she held her stick. Angelus chose red and they spent the rest of the afternoon playing games. Angelus was going crazy, he could not stand all of the cute games she made him play. When she pulled out her Barbies and gave him one he tried to leave. CJ stood up and opened the door and Angleus felt the sun's rays burn his skin. He screamed in pain and sat back down again and started dressing the Barbie. When she finally got up he thought his torture was finally over until he heard the music she had put on. It was the Spice Girls. "Tell me what you want, what you really really want" He knew what he wanted, he wanted this torture to be over. He did not think that he would be able to last till sundown. He knew he wouldn't. It was only 3. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ CJ was having fun. She was learning all kinds of things about Angelus and his life. She kept asking him questions over and over again until he screamed at her. If he did not answer her she let the sun hit him and watched him scream in pain, then she would stab him with her mother's special stick. He had a lot of holes on his body to go with the burns on his body. She could tell that she was driving him crazy and she was happy. He deserved it. She could hear Angel laughing and laughed with him. As it grew closer to her bed time and the sun was get ready to set she had him read her stories. She knew he would hate doing it. She made him read "The Velveteen Rabbit", "Green Eggs and Ham", "The Little Train That Could", "See Spot Run", and "Sweet Valley Kids" books. After he had finished that, he was begging her to stop and let him go. She said she would only if he promised to never come near the orphanage again. He said he would, and by this time he was babbling like an idiot. As she stood up and walked to him he cringed as far away from her as he could get. He did not want to be hurt again. She asked for his sword necklace and he took it off and tossed it to her. She put it on and smiled. Angel was happy too since he said she could have it. She went and got one of the older boys that liked her. She told him that a crazy guy had come into her room. He grabbed Angelus who was a mess and took him down the stairs and dumped him outside. CJ stood over him as the last ray of the sun went away. "Don't come back or bring any friends or I will hurt you more. I know where you live." Angelus nodded his head. As she turned to leave Angelus called out. "What is your name?" "I am CJ. Thank you for playing with me, it was fun." CJ turned and skipped back inside. Angelus stood staring after her. He was never going to come near this place again. He had never been so scared in his entire existence. CJ was the master of torture and mind games. He did not want to see what she would turn into when she got older. He rolled towards the sewer and away from the terror that had gripped him this last day. So ends Angelus's Scary Adventure. ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 1 Jun 1998 20:17:44 EDT From: Subject: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Question regarding the Codex Does anyone know what language the Pagamon Codex was originally in? ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 01 Jun 1998 20:23:54 -0400 From: David Williams Subject: Re: BUFFYFIC: DISCUSS: Question regarding the Codex At 08:17 PM 6/1/98 , KylenRevik@aol.com wrote: >Does anyone know what language the Pagamon Codex was originally in? Pergamum; it's a city in Asia Minor (or was). And it was in classical Greek, because Giles was reading it aloud in the original and then translating. - -- David Williams Dept. of Theology, Boston College That tagline is TRUE -> <- That tagline is FALSE ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 1 Jun 1998 21:01:39 EDT From: Subject: BUFFYFIC: Discuss: Angel's Scary Adventure Sorry to mail this to the whole list, but it bounced from the author's address and I'm hoping they see it here instead...I loved the story, was laughing so hard i was crying, and if you'v ewritten anything else may I see it? (Please excuse the typos, BAD wrists today...) ------------------------------ Date: Mon, 01 Jun 1998 23:10:01 -0400 From: Dreamscape Subject: BUFFYFIC: Help Me Understand 1/1 by Dreamscape205 TITLE: Help Me Understand AUTHOR: Dreamscape205 EMAIL: Angelus@mediaone.net DISTRIBUTION: Anya, I'll submit it directly through the Slayer's Fanfic site. Anyone else, it's okay as long as you give me credit, and email me with the URL I can find it archived. SUMMARY: The gang try to deal with Buffy's absence RATING: PG TYPE: TB SPOILERS: Becoming II DISCLAIMER: BtVS and its character's belong to Joss "The Torturer" Whedon, the WB, Fox, and Mutant Enemy. No infringements intended! ************* Help Me Understand She sat alone in the living room, staring straight ahead. Not looking at anything, but looking through them. How long had she been like this? For days, at least. Her hair hung in an unclean, string mass. Her makeup streaked by tears and running mascara. Her clothes unkempt and wrinkled. In her left hand, she clutched a single sheet of paper. It had the look of being crumpled, straightened, folded and then unfolded many times. She was startled by an unexpected knock at the door. She was tempted to ignore it, but there was the hope of some news. Joyce Summers stood slowly, every muscle in her body screaming from the stiffness that developed after endless hours of sitting without movement. When she reached the door, her first impulse was to scream with rage to leave her alone. Instead, she calmly opened the door and welcomed Mr. Giles, Xander Harris, Cordelia Chase, Willow Rosenberg and her friend, Oz, into her home. They all stood nervously watching her. She felt as if she was on display. "What is it? Has there been any word?" she asked anxiously. "Word?" Giles asked in confusion. Her voice contained the suggestion of slightest hope, "Yes, have you heard from Buffy?" Giles shook his head, "Actually, Mrs. Summers, we came here looking for her." Joyce's eyes filled with tears and her chin quivered. She held out the crumpled piece of paper to Giles, "Please....help me understand." Giles quickly read the note then handed it to Willow as he pulled Joyce into the circle of his arms. There was no doubt this woman needed his comfort...anyone's comfort. Willow recognized Buffy's handwriting and began reading the note aloud. "Mom, I know you lashed out because you can't comprehend what it is that I have become. Believe me, I understand. Trust in the fact that anything I have done has been for the good of mankind. I never meant to hurt you. I am leaving...not because I want to, but because I need to. The things I had to do today to save the world have cost me more than I thought I had to give. There's an open wound where my heart is suppose to be, and I don't think it will ever heal. I don't know when...or if...I'll be back. Please go on without me. You're better off without me, for all the trouble I've been. I'm sorry. If there is one thing I am...it's sorry. Sorry for caring...sorry for living...sorry for loving. Buffy" Willow looked up through tear-filled eyes to see the same in every face in the room. Even Oz, who although fond of Buffy, hadn't had the time to develop a close relationship with her. Joyce sobbed against Giles chest, "Why? Why Buffy?" Giles pulled away from Joyce, lead her to the couch, and sat her down. "There is no answer. She is The Chosen One. The one girl in all the world with the strength to fight the vampires. There's no rhyme or reason...it just *is*." "And I'm just supposed to accept and understand that some mystical force chose my daughter to risk her life everyday because 'they say so'?" Her anger was beginning to surface. "And, just what is your role in this? I often wondered why you had such an interest in my daughter." "I am her Watcher. It is my duty to train her, to prepare her for what lies ahead." Giles was ready for the volcano to erupt within Joyce. He was shocked by the calm reaction to his statement. "So, then, as her Watcher, you have no idea what has happened to her?" She wanted to lash out at him, but what good would it do? It wouldn't change the fact that her daughter was some kind of superhero....The Slayer. "She and that Spike character were planning a rescue...your rescue. I never saw her after that." Xander said, "She was still fighting Angel when I was getting Giles out of the building. It wasn't looking good for her. The fact that she came back, left that note, is a good sign. She's alive. That's more than we knew before." "Angel?!" Joyce squealed. "That horrible man. She was fighting him?" Willow joined the conversation, "He wasn't always bad. When Buffy first met him over a year ago, he was good. A vampire with a soul. He helped Buffy, saved her life many times. They tried to fight it, but there was no way they could fight a love so strong. It was that love, that happiness Buffy gave him, that cost him his soul. She's had to live with that, and the pain and death he caused afterwards." Willow took a breath, then continued, "Buffy went to kill him that day, to finally end it. We tried to restore his soul so she wouldn't have to, but I guess it didn't work." Joyce sat, head bowed, "He was so cruel that night he came to the house. He said the most awful things. I never even saw it...the things she was going through. Her birthday...it all started on her birthday, didn't it? That's when I noticed a change, but I didn't know what to do." "Yes, it was her birthday," Giles replied. "I still don't understand how or why. I only understand that my daughter is gone. Can't you help me understand?" "If you can help us..." was Giles only reply. ------------------------------ End of buffyfic-digest V2 #214 ****************************** To subscribe to buffyfic or buffyfic-digest, send the command subscribe buffyfic-digest or subscribe buffy to majordomo@xmission.com. You will need to go through a confirmation process, and the listowners have to manually approve your subscription request, so it may take some time. 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