From: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com (buffyfic-digest) To: buffyfic-digest@lists.xmission.com Subject: buffyfic-digest V2 #371 Reply-To: $SENDER Sender: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com Errors-To: owner-buffyfic@lists.xmission.com Precedence: bulk buffyfic-digest Wednesday, November 18 1998 Volume 02 : Number 371 In this issue: BUFFYFIC: ADMIN: List rules BUFFYFIC: ADMIN: How to (un)s*bscribe BUFFYFIC: Decision of a Lifetime See the end of the digest for information on (un)subscribing to the buffyfic or buffyfic-digest mailing lists and on how to retrieve back issues. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: Tue, 17 Nov 1998 14:55:10 -0500 (EST) From: sah Subject: BUFFYFIC: ADMIN: List rules Welcome! This list is for fiction related to "Buffy The Vampire Slayer," both the TV series and the movie. To ensure that we all get to enjoy as much fiction as possible, please adhere to the following guidelines, and please save them for future reference. 1. Fiction should have Buffy characters in it and clearly be related to Buffy. Crossovers are great, and expected, but general vampire/monster stories that aren't in the Buffy universe and don't use Buffy characters belong somewhere else. 2. Discussion of posted fiction is permitted onlist. Please put "DISCUSS" in your subject line. Requests for missing story parts should go directly to the author, and not be posted to the list. Discussion that is not related directly to the fiction should go over to the general Buffy list. Discussion of fiction is expected to follow common netiquette guidelines and use PG-13 language. 3. No advertising of items or services, Buffy related or not, and no posting of non-story items such as .gifs, sound files, etc.. 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THE BUFFY FICTION LIST To s*bscribe to the Buffy Fiction list, follow the same procedures as listed above-- just substitute buffyfic or buffyfic-digest for buffy or buffy-digest. TO UNS*BSCRIBE FROM ANY BUFFY LIST send a message to majordomo@lists.xmission.com In the body of the message put uns*bscribe buffy (or buffy-digest, or buffyfic, or buffyfic-digest) ------------------------------ Date: Wed, 18 Nov 1998 22:06:59 -0500 From: uzenet@videotron.ca Subject: BUFFYFIC: Decision of a Lifetime Title: Decision of a Lifetime Author: Northlight email: uzenet@videotron.ca Rating: PG-13 (?) Content: Character death. Summary: Buffy has to deal with a decision she's made. Disclaimer: Joss owns them all. Author's Notes: All that I can say was that I was in a weird mood when I wrote this. This was partially inspired by Lori McDonald's 'Split Second Decision'. She waited at his door, her arms wrapped around her thin body protectively. When he finally appeared, the door swinging open beneath his hand, she looked up at him with wide, lost eyes that tore at his heart. "Buffy, what are you doing here?" Angel asked, drawing her into his apartment with a gentle pull. She didn't answer immediately. Rather, she threw herself into his arms, wrapping herself around him with a soft sigh. "Make me _forget_ Angel. Please..." "Buffy..." His protest died when her lips latched onto his with a desperate hunger. "Make me forget, Angel." "I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. There was nothing I could do. It was too late. Oh God, there was nothing--" Willow latched onto the trembling Slayer's arm, her eyes wide and worried. "What happened? Please, you're scaring me, Buffy!" They were waiting for her, their faces already drawn and worried. But they didn't _know_. They didn't know! "I'm so sorry! I couldn't save him.... I couldn't save Giles!" She was sobbing, the harsh cries escaping from her with no effort to hold them back. "Giles?" Willow gasped, her hand tightening around Buffy's arm as she struggled to stop swaying. "He's..." Her head shook in denial, and tears formed in her wide green eyes. "I couldn't help him!" Buffy barely choked out. 'Liar!' her mind hissed. "I couldn't!" Her hands clutched at him desperately, holding him to her with all of her strength. Small hands trained to rid the world of evil trailed over his bare back. The almost feverish warmth of her trembling body warmed the cold expanse of his flesh. "Angel," she whimpered into his shoulder, her hands restlessly roaming his back without leaving contact with him for the slightest moment. "Please..." He understood her plea, his body moving against her and letting her mind fly free from it's self made cage of guilt and shame for an all too brief moment. As her body stilled, and her mind came crashing back into it's prison, and once again, she was drowning within herself. His eyes were angry, full of rage and accusal. "You lied to us, Buffy! You told us that you couldn't help him!" "I couldn't!" Buffy nearly shrieked, glaring at Xander as if she could keep his words at bay by the pure force of her desire to deny them. "I tried! I tried! I did!" He looked at her with disgust backing away from her in a physical display of the emotion she could so clearly hear in his voice. "You chose Angel over Giles' life. You let a monster live rather than the man who devoted his life to you!" "It's not true! I couldn't help Giles! That thing had clawed his chest, and there was so much blood all over it and him and everything and it was too late. It was too late..." 'And you'd already lost Angel, hadn't you? Couldn't stand to go without him again, could you? Couldn't go through the guilt or the pain of letting Angel go. You didn't need Giles as long as you had Angel, wasn't that it?' "Too bad Giles wasn't fucking the Slayer, or he might still be around!" Xander sneered, the words more accusatory than they had ever been. "That's not it..." Buffy cried out desperately. She searched out Willow's eyes, looking for understanding, for forgiveness, for something more than the hate in Xander's. The tears in Willow's eyes hid everything else, and Buffy thought that she'd never see beyond those tears again. "Who next, Buffy? Me? Willow? Who?!" "It wasn't like that!" 'I just let him die.' His arms were wrapped around her, holding her body close to his own. She didn't speak, nor move deeper into his embrace. All that he could hear was the shallow rasp of her breath. "Chose one, Slayer. Lover or Watcher?" Her eyes flashed over her bruised and rumpled Watcher, to settle on Angel. He was slumped on the floor, the blow delivered to his head leaving him hovering on the brink of unconsciousness. She loved him. She needed him. Her eyes drifted back to Giles. The thing's claws were at his neck, but his eyes were calm behind his shattered glasses. Something beyond description passed through his eyes as she met them. He would not stop her. He knew that she needed Angel. "Go," he mouthed, his face expressionless, his eyes unreadable. He knew. He always had known. As her arms wrapped around Angel, hauling him to his feet, the creature struck, and Giles' blood ran freely. His body slumped to the ground covered in his own blood, and he stared after Buffy's retreating back with wide, glassy eyes. Buffy pulled away from Angel, his arms dropping to his side uselessly. At his side, yet further away than she had ever been, Buffy curled into a ball as the tears began to flow once more. ~End~ ------------------------------ End of buffyfic-digest V2 #371 ****************************** To subscribe to buffyfic or buffyfic-digest, send the command subscribe buffyfic-digest or subscribe buffy to majordomo@xmission.com. You will need to go through a confirmation process, and the listowners have to manually approve your subscription request, so it may take some time. 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